Ok...I'm so pissed off right now, I don't even know what to do with all the anger inside of me. There are a couple reasons why I'm pissed off right now.
First, my stupid group for my class sucks. There are two other people in it, and they are both older than I am by about 20-30 years (seriously!!). Anyway, we have two reports to write for the class I'm in, and the first report is currently being graded (i'm very worried about that grade). The second report we are meeting on tonight to discuss it a bit. Well, yesterday I emailed our professor asking if I was going in the right direction with my research. To which he replied, more or less, No you are not...here's how you shoudl do it. So, I brought that to the attention of one of my group members via email, and she responded by saying we'll discuss it tongiht, and that she will email our professor as well to see what he says! HELLO....I just told you what he said. He basically laid out the plan of how we should split up the second report. What? Am I just too stupid, do you not trust that I'm telling the truth? I feel like I'm treated this way a lot in all of the classes I have taken so far. They all act like they are so much more superior than I am because I've only be in public work for approximately two years...How could I possibly know what I'm talking about...I'm only 24! Fuckers!
Second, I'm pissed at myself. Ever since I've moved into my new house I have stopped exercising and right now I'm feeling like a huge blob of shit. I spend too much time with my boyfriend, and not enough time with myself. I work, I go home, I cook dinner, I eat dinner and wahtever else I want to eat, watch tv, go to bed. My life is miserable. My sister, whom I live with, hates me and she is very open about saying so. My boyfriend is supportive, and is around a lot because I think he knows i'm slowly slipping into a bout of depression. He tries, but I think he just says nice things about me being beautiful and not fat because he has to. Right? Basically, I'm just pissed because I set my alarm this morning early enough for me to get up and work out. However, when the alarm went off, I rolled over and cuddled with Adam...and I just couldn't leave. I love cuddling with him in the early morning...when he's still sleeping. So...I'm pissed that once again I chose dear Adam over myself. Why do I keep doing that!
But, mostly...I'm pissed at my group. So...tonight, I'm gonna go lay down the law and tell them what's up. No more of this quiet little thing I've got going on. I'm not going to let them ruin the second report like the first. I WILL SPEAK MY MIND!!!!
