Feeling Empty

Well, the wedding with off without too much trouble. The things I was worried about ended up great, the things I was not worried about didn't even show up (my cake,specifically). Anywho...it was a beautiful wedding (I only realized after the fact, looking at hundred and hundred of pictures). My family was amazing during the whole wedding period. My sisters helped more than I really even knew they needed to, and I cannot thank them enough for that. Everything was wonderful, and people were eager to help wherever, and whenever. I cannot wait to start writing thank you notes to let everyone know how much they really did help, because they did.

We went to Colorado for a brief time (3 days). It was nice to get out of here and to actually be able to talk to my husband without 500 people around us. It was nice! I must admit, however...I still don't feel like we are married. I guess once I get EVERYTHING changed to my new name it will feel more so, but for now, it feels like we just had a big party. Honestly, looking back on all the pictures I feel like I'm dreaming or something. I cannot believe how fast the whole day went.

Now, i'm back to work, and feeling very empty. For the last year I've always had this wedding in the back of my head. So, if ever I needed a break from work...I just started searing for wedding ideas. Now, I'm just working constantly, with nothing to really take me away. It's horrible, I wanted this wedding to get over, and be done with...but now I miss it.

I know I told everyone I wish I had eloped, but honestly, I'm glad I had the wedding. It was so much fun to be able to be a bride (even though I wasn't the traditional bride by any means). It was nice to be able to plan an event like I did, and watch it come to life. It is so fun to look back at the pictures and smile thinking about how all my hard work (and so many other people's hard work) turned out wonderfully. It was beautiful.

So...what do I do with my creative juices now?? Hmmm...maybe I'll redecorate the apartment. Adam better watch out, when he comes home on teh weekends, he won't even recognize the place.